It is with tears of pure gratitude, that I write to you with no words that are adequate to express our sincere appreciation for your hard and timeless devotion and work to heal my daughter.
After twenty years of different types of therapy, feeling lost, like I couldn’t really settle, feeling like two separate people but not really being able to understand why, having relationship difficulties and an eating disorder that I could never really get under control, I was recommended to Colin by a friend.
If you are a veteran reading this because you are researching something for yourself but don’t know who, or what, to reach out to, you are in the right place!
I was involved in a potentially life threatening accident which left me very anxious and depressed. This put a tremendous strain on my marriage and relationship with my family. I was diagnosed as suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder. I was referred to a psychologist called Colin Howard, and I received a treatment called EMDR. The treatment has had a positive outcome for me and my family. I was treated with dignity and respect, Colin is a true gentleman, and is a true expert in his field.
I got in touch with Colin summer 2020 when I was having a really hard time understanding my thoughts and feelings. I started taking antidepressants in the winter of 2020 which was helpful, but then COVID hit and things just seemed to spiral out of control from there.
I made contact with Colin when I felt quite desperate. It is difficult to describe the depths of despair I was experiencing, I began to think it would be better to be dead than go on in the state I was in. I rang Colin in this state of desperation, I did not know where to turn.
I started working with Colin in February 2014 and I was a wreck, I was always stressed, had anxiety as well as depression. I was fearful every day and could either be as high as a kite or couldn't get out of bed. Through working with Colin over the last 5 months I have completely returned to the bubbly, happy person I was many years ago.
I am a 53 years old and since the age of 3 or 4 experienced one trauma after the other including sexual abuse, neglect and was orphaned by age of 13. Life has always been an uphill struggle and the feelings of self loathing and failure have continued throughout my whole life. Failed marriages, bankruptcy self imposed ill health both physical and mental. I’d seen therapists and counsellors many times. They tried to help and were good and kind but somehow nothing changed for me. I was often described as aggressive and obstructive....I’m neither. I was diagnosed with complex Post traumatic stress disorder, given antidepressants and left to get on with ruining my life.
Finally, I was introduced to Colin Howard in spring 2018. I was dubious for a while because I didn’t really understand the concept of EMDR. He explained it all to with patience and in simple terms and put me at my ease. I felt complete trust and confidence in Colin from the start.
Our sessions were often gruellingly difficult and exhausting , and at times I felt like a wrung out dish cloth! The next session would be lots of laughter and fun, but which ever way it went I always felt it was worthwhile and that something positive was being accomplished .
It’s been a good few months since I last saw Colin but this morning, out of the blue I had an experience which at one time would have sent me into an absolute meltdown and ruined the whole day. Instead, I chuckled at a memory that Colin and I had created during a session! It felt fantastic to know that I’m now in control of my emotions. I understand them. And I can live with them.
I encourage anyone seeking help with trauma to see Colin Howard. I will always be grateful to him.